The Sidewalk Cafe

Wow, life has sucked recently.  I spent the last month of my life packing and moving my parents for the first time in 22 years.  They had to temporarily move into a condo until the house they were bidding on closed.  They finally signed the papers today.  We move them in next week.

Of course, spending so much time getting them settled caused me to fall behind in my life.  I let my business go and my life.  Now my bank account is -$117 and I can’t afford to life.  I didn’t realize how much I depended on my business until it slowed down.  I’m only working 29 hours a week right now and the size of the check just isn’t enough.   I still have another month as a temp before I’m officially hired on.  Even then that’s not guaranteed.  For now I’m going to pick up extra days at work and look for a second job.  Hopefully I can get my business going again.
Marcel is unemployed now and I think it’s stressing him out.  Of course, I think there’s more to it than that, but he’s decided to cut himself off from the world for a few days.  Hopefully he’ll come back soon.  He’s not even talking to me, so I just sent him a note letting him know that I’m here if he needs me.  It’s really all that I can do.

I’m tired of stressing and crying over my life.  It’s pissing me off that I’m at this point in my life at age 27.  I feel like I’m just starting out again and I absolutely hate it.  I’m thinking about getting married and starting a family, but I can’t do that if I can’t even afford to eat.  I’m living off of Top Ramen.  At age 27.  It’s pathetic.

I’ve decided that my 2 day work week entertains me today. Since tomorrow is a holiday I don’t have to work, but the temp agancy still pays me for that day. Hee Hee … I can’t wait until I’m finally hired on at this company. When it comes to bonus time I’m going to kick ASS!! The $100 bonus just for being on time each day will be a cake walk. And I’m great at closing sales so I should get a decent bonus for that too. Not to mention my hourly pay rate will increase by a $1.00 and I’ll move to a 40 hour week. Should be making decent money that way instead of struggling like I am now.

We came to work today and the credit card processing company was not working. I guess there was a fire in the building that set off the sprinkler systems for the company around midnight. We didn’t get the system back up until almost 11am. A lot of unhappy customers who wanted to pay there bill and sign up for services. Good times. Made me giggle anyways. I also need to try and get more web clients.

And now I shall get back to work.

3 legends GONE.  Michael Jackson, Farrah Fawcett and Ed Mahon.  What is going on?  Who’s next?

THRILLLLLLLERRRRR

Yea, so I haven’t really been blogging much.  Kinda forgot about it.  It’s been an interesting week. 

Raven was dying Cassie’s (neighbor kid) hair  on Thursday when Cassie’s friend came running to the door to say that Brandi (Cassie’s sister) was unconscious on the front porch.  I told them to bring her to our house and put her on the couch.  Turns out Brandi had taken a vicodin after also taking IBProfrin.  She was laying on the couch unconscious and her entire body was convulsing.  I thought for sure we were going to have to take her to the hospital, but since she’s already been the the ER twice in as many weeks her mother told us not to.  Her mom raced home and we dragged her off the couch and worked on getting her conscious and alert.  Her mom threw water in her face and was lightly smacking her on the face to wake her up.  Once we got her semi functioning we had her sip water, pedia-lite and eat a piece of bread.  Turns out the doctor originally gave her 50 mg of vicodin.  The refill she got was 500 mg.  She took it on an empty stomach and she only weighs about 120 soaking wet.  That child scared the life outta us.  Even Ruby was sitting next her her in an alert position just watching her.

So, a couple weeks ago Marcel informed me that he wanted to move down to Palm Desert, CA.   His best friend’s (Leroy) mom was supposed to be buying a house for Leroy down there and Marcel wanted to move down there with him.  He said he wouldn’t go unless I went with him though.  I thought that was sweet.  He’d stay here in Oregon and be miserable just to be near me.  I think him moving would be a great idea.  It would give him the opportunity to live his life without having to worry about his brother and his craziness all the time.  Although his brother is currently drugged for now.  Which I’m guessing is a nice change.

Working at Consumer Cellular has been interesting.  Old people are KILLING me.  lol … Some people just shouldn’t have cell phones.  I’m telling you.  I sit here and just giggle some days.  It’s really slow today, which is why I’m sitting here catching up on blogging.  I just had this one guy that kept calling me Ashley.  I was like WTF.  How did you get Ashley from Stefanie?  I just finished the call without correcting him.  Sometimes it’s just not worth the fight.

I’ve hardly slept this week so I’m beyond tired while talking to these people.  Hell, today alone I fell asleep on the toilet.  LOL … My head jerked and woke me up.   Well, I thought it was funny anyway.  Well, I guess I will go to www.addictinggames.com and play now. 

Do you ever have those days where you don’t feel pretty or sexy or wanted. I do. Today has been one of those days. Where you wake up happy and as you progress in the day you just feel more and more miserable and depressed. I don’t even know what happened. It was like one moment yay and the next boo hate you. Seemingly for no reason whatsoever. But I guess that’s just the way my day is going to be. So damn unpretty.
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